This has been a week to be sure. It began with the usual in the clinics here in Gabs where I do some mentoring and teaching. I had an opportunity to work alongside a great Ethiopian doc who is one of my favorites; inquisitive, sensitive, compassionate. As things wind down toward Christmas, (I must have been the last one to find out that it is now called the "festive season"), indeed this is a predominantly Christian area intermixed with North African Muslims and Indian Hindi, the docs thin out and we are generally under staffed. Even the streets have about half as many cars. Next week and the week after they will become deserted.
I was informed that I can be, or am, too "paternalistic" and that that puts distance between me and some of the MO's in training and some of the BUP docs. It is difficult to know where the line is. I think this dates back to a Monday morning report where we had had 9 deaths over the weekend with 17 admissions. Many of the deaths were reported off handedly and were certified when the patient was "cold and stiff". I looked around and was disappointed that this wasn't bothering anyone or that they weren't speaking up about it. I pointedly raised the notion that this can never be OK. Some of the patients would have died anyway to be sure, but they deserved a physician at the bedside and some could have been saved had they had a doc earlier on in the process. And that the leadership in this had to come from "us" (I was sure to use this term) as it would not come from the nursing service.
But first we had to care. After I finished this rant there was silence. And then the finger pointing began. It was the nurses, the docs, etc. The nurses are used to not having their pages answered so don't call, and the docs claim they are busy in the A and E so they can't respond or that they aren't paged in the first place; a monstrous and emblematic mess. In any case as this came across from a guy my age and since it was pointed it was apparently interpreted as paternalistic. Hell yes I was angry and dumbfounded. Why wasn't anyone else? So deniability is automatically built in if it comes from a "paternalistic old, angry man". I'm still not sure what that means except that I am old enough to be the uncle or father of all the trainees and younger MO's in the health care system, or at PMH, or at BUP for that matter. And dysfunction continues to reign supreme. There are providers and colleagues that are gifted and highly capable to be sure, yet I have found the delivery systems to be increasingly burdensome.
I fear we aren't building capacity (read rehabilitating) here as much as participating in a westernized agenda of rescuing. At this point I have a better idea of what doesn't work that what does. Building relationships is difficult to quantify and yet that is what I do most of time. Never the less in a grant based program it is important to quantify what it is we do. I haven't found the appropriate way to do this and it becomes frustrating to slowly realize that this might not be what I originally signed on for. I have no problem with those that do enjoy this and have a passion for it; it just isn't this aged doc's idea of practice.
And moving back to the States isn't as easy as it might seem. I love and miss my family to be sure. And I love clinical medicine, especially the creative, working without a net part. Things in the US were dysfunctional enough that I felt suffocated. And the pathology often bypasses me or the etiology is based in overindulgence (witness metabolic syndrome). Add that to entitlement and things rapidly stopped being fun and engaging. Here and other places I at least get to do the following:
I was at a district hospital this week and heard about an 18m/o that came in very dehydrated and probably septic. The resuscitation was great; fluids and meds by IO, somehow including D50W in small boluses. I was asked to review the patient and did so. All the MO's dropped by peds and remarked how much better he looked. I thought great until I noticed that he was still breathing rapidly and deeply. By now he should have been back to base line respirations with a pulse that was normal for age. I started to connect the dots in this aged, Lamictal affected brain of mine and asked for a finger stick blood sugar. It came back at 5x normal.
Ohhhhkay now we have a better idea of the what and why. Let's get a quick UA as we can't get a bicarb level, let alone an ABG. The UA indicated a pH of 5 (acidotic) and ketones were 1+ with glucose of 3+; a slam dunk; DKA. So I shipped him to PMH as they have pediatricians and better lab support. Nowhere in the US world of primary care would I have that chance to diagnose DKA with a minimal amount of, or no, lab support. We could have treated it but I had to leave that afternoon and I/we would have needed to check on him q30m. It was a great teaching opportunity, and exactly how can that be quantified? Or, perhaps more to the point, where in the US could I duplicate that?
Time here is flying by as I get to live in the present. I am working with some truly brilliant and gifted docs, for many of whom this represents their first career move or they are in the first 5-10 yrs of their career. I'm not and this is becoming a bit of an issue I fear. Time to wait and see I guess.
Best to all for a festive season!