They say that these things occur in threes...

It's been a week. I know, I say that a lot.

On Tuesday we flew to the NW part of Bots and I went to New Xade (pronounced with a click), a San village 100 km out on a dirt road, incredible. The health care is episodic and interestingly full of HIV, but performed with great expertise by the MO who visits there once a month.

On Thursday we were in Lobatse where we work in the secondary hospital and clinics; first leading a discussion with the medical staff in the hospital then, while one of us stays and completes rounds, the other ventures out to the clinics and mentors there. Since the hospital is so understaffed due to people on leave and reassignment, we routinely take on a much bigger treating role there than in at any other facility.

During our discussion of thrombosis and HIV, an exhausted doc who was just coming off night call received a phone call and motioned to me to come with him. One of his patients was decompensating (read dying). We went to the ward and found a 45 yr old man, HIV negative which becomes important later, with massive hematemesis (vomiting up blood) and with a huge amount of blood in his stool. It turned out that he had liver failure and as a result had varicose veins of his esophagus and stomach, which were briskly bleeding. He was encephalopathic (read comatose) and we, Matt and I, got busy. Normally we try to stand back and use the opportunity to mentor but this guy was "heading for the light" and the doc coming off call had that "what should I do?" look.

Long story short, I have a tendency to concentrate with my mouth open. This has resulted in infant boys peeing into the back of my throat as I attempt to circumcise them, tasting engine oil if I can't get out of the way fast enough while I change it, etc. So there I was attempting intubation on this guy with of course an open mouth when he roops up some more blood, which unknowingly (I know, I know already) apparently splashed into the back of my mouth. I wondered why I suddenly had a salty taste in the back of my mouth and dismissed it to the meds I am taking (moth eaten brain and all...). We were unsuccessful in the attempt so, what with a prostate the size if an apple and a small bladder, I excused myself to "the toilet" as we say here. I glanced in a window for some reason on the way to the loo and there it was, some blood on my lip. At first I actually asked myself "how the hell did that happen" then it dawned on me....bleep, so THAT was the salty taste (definitely NOT the brightest bulb in the box).

I pee'd (not quickly, see reference to prostate) and hustled back to to check the guy's HIV status, which was negative within the last two days. He was close to buying the farm. And had had a recent (-)HIV test, which is not particularly reassuring as he could have acute HIV disease and not yet converted to positive. I theoretically could have been in a touch of deep doo-doo.

I called Michelle, our third new partner who is fortunately an Infectious Disease specialist, and she was very understanding if not a little bit amused. "Intubating with your mouth open, huh?" She told me what I already suspected, that my risk was infinitesimal, so I'm not on post exposure prophylaxsis as the risk of me auguring in on the drive home was much higher that the risk of HIV. Any other annoying thing I would have been exposed to was something against which I was either immunized or wherein any self respecting virus would retreat to infect another day.

I wisely, to my credit, called Lynne who got a good laugh out of it at my expense and then promptly informed the kids (cue the collective eye roll and gut laugh)for which I'm sure I will suffer mightily.

Matt and I disagreed about transfer, he for it and me against it, and we held this discussion in front of the nurses. It was a great teaching moment as they had a chance to see two docs who admire and respect each other have a conversation about which would be best; transfer or allow the guy to die in Lobatse as his prognosis was in negative numbers. He ultimately was transfered as the doc coming off call finally got to point where he just wanted to go home and rest and had had enough. We acknowledged his wishes and transferred. I then rounded on peds and had a much needed series of hugs, and laughter.

Yesterday we were out in Lorolwane, a VERY remote, and therefore way cool village I have described before. The first patient of the day was a woman in distress who was carried off a donkey cart. She had "collapsed" at home... Now I can't count the number of times I have seen this type of attention seeking behavior so my cynicism was in the red zone; heavy sigh... We examined her only to find that she had nystagmus (quick uncoordinated movement of her eyes) and since this can't be done voluntarily she was indeed in deep yogurt. She was HIV positive and our resident expert on ID, Michelle, thought it represented pneumoccocal sepsis. So there we were; 85km from the nearest paved road (I've been in tighter jams), with no ambulance(all of these outposts have one but they typically have been stripped of equipment and in any case there is no pre-hospital care as the nurse traditionally rides up front), no cell service (most these little villages have a cell tower, a good thing, but they are rarely maintained, an extremely frustrating thing. Don't get me started), no running water (sinks with pipes to them but no water, an all too common thing. See above about frustration,) an outstanding MO (Cathy), with Matt, Michelle and a dumb family doc.

We valiantly tried everything we could think of and Cathy made some tough decisions with an expertise that belies her level of training. And as the patient was loaded into the district truck that brought Cathy to the site, she breathed her last and died. It was at some level a privilege to witness that and realize her release and, again, teach Cathy about the diagnosis and dismal prognosis of sepsis. But we all felt empty.

The evening was finished with watching Matt play sax with an outstanding African jazz band (that guy amazes me) and then passing out in bed. It's rare anymore that I sleep and awake without being aware I'm in bed but it's been a week. This has been a touch longer than the average screed but it has been therapeutic to externalize it. And at some level I always finish the week feeling most fortunate and loving it.